I wish you could hear my voice on this one, for then you would know how tender my heart is towards you. I realise the title you've been given "Puppet on a String" is not a highly appealing one. In fact, I reckon it would influence the image you have of yourself in a negative way. And that is not what I want for you.
The truth is, this image, this puppet on a string, is not you. It's not. I know there have been times when you feel like you've been pushed and pulled in many directions, and I know life and people have conditioned you to believe this image of yourself at times, but it's not who you are, my beautiful friend.
Through my heart's eye, and from the compassion the Father holds, I was given an image of you - of a puppet on a string. The picture I saw was of you standing on a stage, ready to perform; willing to perform. But you were so sad. You wanted someone to hold your strings and move them for you, but, try as you might to shove your strings in their hands so they could control you, no one would take them... This made you very sad, indeed. In fact, I believe it made you feel so very lonely and so very alone in the world.
My heart broke for you on seeing this. I just wanted to cut those strings and set you free. But I know you're not ready to be free of those strings, because, as I said earlier, you've been conditioned to believe you should be, or are, a puppet on a string. You are convinced that is who you are and how you must live, and I can't free you of that image. I can't break those strings. God can. But I can't. All I can do is encourage you to have them removed by reflecting back to you who you are.
You are beautiful... Please don't turn away from me on hearing that. Please stay with me a bit longer. Please dare to listen to what I'm saying...
What I saw on looking at you there on the stage was someone with a very gentle, loving, giving, generous heart. You've been knocked around so many times - knocked around and down, and left to die. And you have the scars to prove it. But you're not trying to prove that you've been broken. You're not even trying to convince the world of the beauty you possess - and that quite possibly because you don't believe you possess it. Rather, all you're seeking to do, in the humility your heart truly does possess, is be what the world wants you to be.
You aren't a puppet on a string because you've got a bad heart, or because you're weak, but because you desire to please. It is actually the most beautiful, tender, humble part of your heart that has allowed you to be bound this way.
You were born with such a sweet innocence. You were created with a great awareness that there is an order of things, such as in family, school, work and so on, and, in this humble part of you, you were, and are, willing to do the right thing. However, so many in your world have failed to do right by you, and right by the role they play in this life.
In all your sweetness, when they wronged you, you took on the belief that it was your fault; you failed; you failed to please them, to do the right thing, to make them happy... It is the goodness of your heart, and the beauty that is you, that feels the wounds so deeply; that wants to please those you love. They left you broken by not fulfilling their part. They left you deflated, disillusioned, and not a little lost, and I think you may believe that if you have them pull your strings, they will rise up and do their duty and then all will be as it should be.
Some may see your willingness to please as weakness. But it's not. It's your way of expressing love for others.
However, my tender hearted friend, God doesn't want you to be controlled by those who are incapable of doing everything right - which, I may add, is all of us. He doesn't even want to control you, and He is perfect in all He does. Rather, He wants you to be you. and He wants you to enjoy your life...
And you don't have to have Him pull your strings for you to please Him. He already loves you with ALL that He is.
Did you know God sees you...? The real you. He sees your beauty, your tenderness, your willingness to please, and the humility that enables you to love others through such things. But He also knows that in your desire to please and have things as they should be, you remain imprisoned by emotions - be them born of fear, frustration, or wounds - and He wants to heal and free you.
He would have you know you are not a puppet on a string - or a puppet of any sort, actually - created to perform for others. Rather, you have been created to be as free as the clouds, as the birds of the air, of the air you breathe. He gave you life so you may live...