Looking for motivation
Donna Keevers Driver
On a previous site a few months ago, I wrote about looking for motivation. Since then, I've come to see that negative thoughts do not motivate me to do anything but be negative, hopeless and grumpy, to the point I give up on myself, my dreams, and whatever else I once held my heart, and, with a pout, flop down in a rut. Since then, I've also come to see that love motivates.
Yesterday I wrote a blog called "Love WHO...?!" And since then I've taken to praying for those whom I have withheld prayer for: Those who interrupt MY world ;) with annoyances (as I have seen them) and, I have to tell you, in a very short period of time, my heart has lifted with joy, hope and a sense of excitement. I am actually feeling positive in such a way that that which recently irritated me offends me no more. It's such a rush! lol...
Is this what is meant by the Biblical verse "The joy of the Lord is my strength"...? I've never been able to figure that verse out. I mean, think about it: Doesn't it say that THE JOY OF THE LORD is my strength...? Isn't that saying HIS JOY is my strength? I gain strength from HIS JOY? In praying for others, including my enemy, as God desires me to, I am experiencing a new strength to love, born of a sense of joy... Is the joy I am feeling, that is strengthening me, God's reaction to me doing this? God's reaction to me doing His will...?
It reminds me of the time God impressed upon my heart, "If you're feeling angry, you're thinking wrong..." and I realise now that "Bitch! Idiot! Get'm, God!" are wrong thoughts and prove to feed negativity. I get that now. :)
When I first gave my heart to God, when I first declared myself a Christian, 21 years ago, I sought God's will. I delighted in His ways. And, I must tell ya, I experienced major joy. Well, I did, until I started wearing a highly religious/legalistic robe. It was after I figured I HAD TO "live like this, dress like that, be like them," that struggle came and I lost the joy - especially because God was trying to free me of legalism and I was trying to wear it.
Through this "legalistic" battle, I came to see that grace was a scary thing. I could mess up big time in that, and I so didn't want to. But God did not want me trapped in legalism, so He set forth to free me, and I fought Him. Needless to say, and making a long story short, He won. I eventually welcomed grace, coming to terms with the fact that I would more than likely screw up, but He'd have me covered anyway.
In praying for others, in praying for my enemy, I am not being "legalistic." I am not doing it because I HAVE TO! I choose to do it because I am simply responding to the love He first gave me.
God's love motivates me to do His will. Not duty. Not obligation. Not legalism and religious ritual. Love. And His will is not burdensome, especially when His love enables us.
If we're not feeling the love, we will struggle. We will become negative. We will become angry. And anger motives, too, but it drives us to cause more trouble than what we had to begin with. Love will pay for what it "feels" and is. Anger will make others pay. Love brings peace and a sense of well-being. Anger serves to feed ego... but now I'm getting off track. lol... However, in God's presence - the door to which is His will - love empowers.
I have been praying since writing that last blog because I felt the sadness of God's heart towards those we, His children, are failing to love. I pray because the love of His heart desired it, and the love of my heart responded with a breathless yes. Above all, I pray because I have observed God's love for others.
God's love for me motivated me. P The love He awoke in my heart, which returns to Him with earnest desire, motivates me. The love that comes from the Father's heart for others, on doing His will and praying for them, motivates me to love them even more... so I will keep praying. And, as though I am being rewarded for doing this, my attitude becomes more positive, joy bubbles excitedly within my heart, and I am strengthened to face a new day and do whatever is set before me.
Love... it is the greatest motivator of all... And... come on, you know what I'm going to say... ;) GOD IS LOVE... so where better to get the purest love that motivates with ease than the source that first loved you...