Personal reminders more than anything else...
(My Facebook status: Friday, 15 June, 2012)
Donna Keevers Driver
- I've struggled a lot over the years with why God would call me to do anything. Asking: Why me? With what? Are you sure? so on and so forth... I also struggle when I feel too many eyes on me. I was a shy child and that has stayed with me in many ways, so, at times, I suffer the urge to go into hiding and I will stop writing, stop going out with friends, and so on and so forth... I struggle with writing a lot. I lose sight of who I am writing for. (For me, it's the broken heart I write for; for the poor in spirit. My message is True Love and Complete Acceptance - which I found solely in God's heart.) And over the past several months I worked on closing my heart down... Recently, I asked God to restore my heart... and, as He is doing so, and I once again wrestle with the urge to delete sites and go into hiding again, and I once again wrestle with what I know God wants me to do, I suddenly see - just now, actually - that it doesn't matter if no one reads what I write. God's word heals, not mine. It doesn't matter how many views I may or may not get... (and I struggle with more views than I do with less, to be quite truthful. It was the same with Winged Hope - the smaller the group the more comfortable I was with it.) What matters is God asked me to do something. The results may be nothing more than me getting closer to God. But THAT is worth all the struggles, all the wrestling, all the insecurity battles and so on.
Whatever you feel God has called you to, do it. Fret not over your ability or inability. Fret not over what you think the results should be. Fret not over thoughts of failure or success. Rather, just do it because our loving Heavenly Father, who rescued us from the misery pit that was our life, would like us to. Not with an attitude of "I HAVE TO do this..." but with a thankful heart. ♥