Do you ever fail to listen to that still small voice within that says, "Don't go there"...? I failed to listen to it this morning. I'd received fresh revelation from God, telling me I was looking in the wrong direction - which had been affecting my thoughts, which, in turn, went on to affect my confidence, emotions and decisions, and, because it was the wrong direction I was looking in, these things guided me towards the negative - and as I went to share this with someone important to me, I sensed God telling me not to. So, I didn't... However, a little while later, after I played with the thought, "But I really want to share this with [that person] because sharing this part of my heart (writing) with 'them' is very important to me," I gave in to desire and shared the revelation with them. Man, was that a mistake!!!
In receiving their response, not only did I allow joy, peace and confidence to slip from my hands, I now have to work on holding on to love and respect for them, also!
The silly thing is, despite what I wanted and hoped for, this has happened with this particular person and myself several times over the years. I should've known better. However, I thought they may have altered in this area, but, the truth is - which I now must face - they weren't created to 'get me' in a way I need 'getting' in this particular area. Neither do they believe in me as God does. And as much as I want this to be different, it's not going to be, so the sooner I accept this the sooner my heart can heal in this area and life can go on with peace, joy, confidence and love again. They may not 'get me' or why I do what I do for God, but that doesn't mean I can't accept them for the way they are. Neither do I need to give up my confidence because of their lack of understanding. They can't meet my need in this area, but it's up to me to accept this, not change them, even if I'm left feeling lonely or alone in "this area".
What my revelation was is not important here. What's important is that one must follow the prompting of the Holy Spirit in order to walk in a direction that leads to peace, joy, hope, healing, confidence, and so on, and not in the way of emotions that offer, like the proverbial carrot on a stick, the possibility of greater intimacy - even if that person is your partner.
If God says don't go there, don't go there, no matter what desire tries to convince you of, or you will suffer for it. Please don't mishear that! God's not going to punish you for 'going there', rather, He simply said not to go there because He was trying to stop you from suffering; to go there when He says not to, is to simply miss out on the blessing He had for you. You see, God was trying to protect me - even from someone who loves me greatly. Chances are, He heard my inner cry of wanting to be closer to this person, so, in response, He was leading me in which direction to go in order to allow that bond to deepen, and I blew it. I didn't heed God's prompting and I missed the greater blessing.
Listen, my son, accept what I say,
and the years of your life will be many.
I instruct you in the way of wisdom
and lead you along straight paths.
When you walk, your steps will not be hampered;
when you run, you will not stumble.
My sheep hear My voice,
and I know them,
and they follow Me.
The thief does not come except to steal,
and to kill,
and to destroy.
I have come that they may have life,
and that they may have it more abundantly.
For You, Lord, are good,
and ready to forgive,
And abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.