I'll try to keep this short, as it's late and I'm very sleepy - which means, the more I talk the less sense I'll make. ;)
I received these flowers for my birthday, today. They were delivered to my door, from my oldest sister. Aren't they gorgeous?!
I believe God used them, and my sister's love, to open my heart a little more today. For such was the surprise and the joy they brought me that my heart put aside everything but love, and through that love God spoke to me:
All through my childhood and teen years, and way into my adult years, I was convinced I was not worthy of love. I gathered many negative voices and looks from people during my growing years that convinced me I was worthless. God has tried to convince me many times and in many ways over the years that I am loved, but, still, I swayed towards the opinion of those voices when confidence was low. But not anymore. Not after what God opened my eyes to tonight. Tonight, I have had my eyes opened to the love I've been given by 'a few' - and how precious it is.
If I were to break it down into percentages (which is the image I keep getting), I would say that 80% of the people I've known in my life left me feeling worthless. From a very early age I built my identity on the lack of love these people gave me, and not on the love others gave me. Tonight, God took the 80% and placed them next to the 20% and, in one breath, I could see, and I understood, how very precious the hearts that belong to the 20% are.
They are the treasures of my life. Their love is amazing! I mean, 80% of people don't, won't, or couldn't love me. That is a huge percentage, no? So how special does that make the love of the 20%? VERY special. THEY are very special. Not me. THEM!!
Oh, I get teary on seeing how wonderful they are...
Did I explain that right? What I saw was: If it is THAT hard for THAT many people to love me, then how wonderful are the few who can. How special they are!
I don't need to be loved by 100%. Heck, I don't even need 50%. But I am in awe of that 20%. How blessed am I to have them in my life. SO very blessed, indeed.
I shall treasure the love given me from "the 20%" more than ever from this day forward.
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To those who love me (and, yes, I know who you are :) ) THANK YOU! YOU are the greatest treasure I have ever known. I love you SO much.
And to the 80%...you make the 20% look even better. :) Thank you.
God bless you all with a greater awareness of just how much you ARE loved!
How much are you loved? Well, if you can't see it in God's eyes, ask Him to show you, and while you're waiting, check out the 20% in your life. :) You'll find your true worth there. :) <3
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I received these flowers for my birthday, today. They were delivered to my door, from my oldest sister. Aren't they gorgeous?!
I believe God used them, and my sister's love, to open my heart a little more today. For such was the surprise and the joy they brought me that my heart put aside everything but love, and through that love God spoke to me:
All through my childhood and teen years, and way into my adult years, I was convinced I was not worthy of love. I gathered many negative voices and looks from people during my growing years that convinced me I was worthless. God has tried to convince me many times and in many ways over the years that I am loved, but, still, I swayed towards the opinion of those voices when confidence was low. But not anymore. Not after what God opened my eyes to tonight. Tonight, I have had my eyes opened to the love I've been given by 'a few' - and how precious it is.
If I were to break it down into percentages (which is the image I keep getting), I would say that 80% of the people I've known in my life left me feeling worthless. From a very early age I built my identity on the lack of love these people gave me, and not on the love others gave me. Tonight, God took the 80% and placed them next to the 20% and, in one breath, I could see, and I understood, how very precious the hearts that belong to the 20% are.
They are the treasures of my life. Their love is amazing! I mean, 80% of people don't, won't, or couldn't love me. That is a huge percentage, no? So how special does that make the love of the 20%? VERY special. THEY are very special. Not me. THEM!!
Oh, I get teary on seeing how wonderful they are...
Did I explain that right? What I saw was: If it is THAT hard for THAT many people to love me, then how wonderful are the few who can. How special they are!
I don't need to be loved by 100%. Heck, I don't even need 50%. But I am in awe of that 20%. How blessed am I to have them in my life. SO very blessed, indeed.
I shall treasure the love given me from "the 20%" more than ever from this day forward.
__________________________________________________________________
To those who love me (and, yes, I know who you are :) ) THANK YOU! YOU are the greatest treasure I have ever known. I love you SO much.
And to the 80%...you make the 20% look even better. :) Thank you.
God bless you all with a greater awareness of just how much you ARE loved!
How much are you loved? Well, if you can't see it in God's eyes, ask Him to show you, and while you're waiting, check out the 20% in your life. :) You'll find your true worth there. :) <3
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